Days before 2nd cycle

Just before going into my 2nd cycle of chemo I was feeling great. But let me explain how my 2 weeks went with the first round of  chemo. Day one was good both of the people taking care of me was there.  That made me not feel alone. My husband and Uncle E. are my support group at home.  Day one was good they gave me a liquid form of ativan which made me very sleepy during the whole process.  The 1st three days were ok, so nausea but they gave me different pills to try for that.  Day 4 and 5 I had the chills ready bad. I mean still walking around with a sweatshirt and still cold, but I had to check my temp everyday, which is important. See I cant have a temp higher than 100.4. See they also gave me a special card that helps me to bypass the Emergency Room, if I ever needed it.  But my temp was normal the whole time. I tell you like a new person the next day, I felted so different.  I had energy, just a little bit more than all week. After day  7 I was out the door, being a mother. I was grocery shopping, running errands, helping with school projects, walking outside, I even took a bunch of teenagers to the pool.  No I did not get in the pool, I was enjoying the cool breeze in the shade.  I have to wear sunblock now because of the chemo.  

A few days before the next chemo treatment me and my Uncle E. came up with a plan to push super antioxidants, iron, probiotics, fruits, and veggies. So we do that.  He made awesome green shakes and smoothies in the morning for me.  Lunch or dinner I would have a salad. Yes my taste buds in the beginning was not helping me, but I know that pizza and chocolate pudding is a life saver for me, for now.  Day 12, it started, my hair was coming out in clumps from not on top of my hair. Im just being honest for the people who really need to know. Then day 13 I was srcatching my hair gently and a patch came out. All I could do was take a deep breath.  

That is enough for now...until later.

(Remember I'm not a writer so please dont judge the flow of my content like that, this is meant to be infomative as I go through this process).

Today is the day

I didn't receive much sleep last night, as I was worried about my results.  I keep everything on the down low just between me and my husband.  He went to work that day and I started cooking breakfast for my boys. Then the phone rang, it was a Doctor from the Breast center and he put it to me boldly, I'am sorry to inform you that the the test results revealed that you have stage  2B breast cancer, I was floored.  What does this really mean? We have made an appointment for you to come in and meet with our team so we can get started on treating you.

The next day I meet my Breast team and they were so nice the whole way.  They spoke with me gently and slow and explained things to me in not using really big words.  I felt important and informed.  I meet later that week with my oncologist and we discussed the treament plan.  I also meet with a gentic counslor to consult me on getting blood test done to see if a specific gene ran in my family.  It was called the BRACA test.  The next day I called my father who I have not spoken to in months.  I said hello and he started the conversation with oh hi we just buried your Auntie.  She passed away from ovarian cancer.  And there might be somthing wrong with his prostate. So since we were talking about cancer in the family I proceeded to tell him what was going on with me.  He broke down immediatlly and gave me contact information to another auntie that went through this.  I spoke with my aunt and she explained to me how the mutatuted BRACA 2 gene runs in our family.  She had a double mastocomy. I also learned that BRACA 2 up the chances for ovarian cancer and that our ovareiey need to come out before the age of 40.  Knowing all this information was and still is over whelming.

What would be your thought right now?

July is finally here and its time for our family vacation along with my Uncle Erik and his two beautiful twins girls age 13.  My sons ages are 15 and 12.  We have so much planned out for the next two week.  I started placing our agenda in my cozi reminder, its an app on my phone and computer that helps keep the family together.  Off the subject of a moment this app helps you to schedule an appointment with the time, date, hours, notes, and a reminder clock. You have the options of letting other members that you choose to know about the event also.  You can send a grocery list to other family members phones and even see at a glance what events are coming up later this week. It has a contact list, to do list for yourself or others, and a place to journal with added pics for your pleasure.

Back to the summer vacation... Our first stop was Kings Dominion in VA.  We planned this trip right.  All the bags and Ford Flex was ready and packed and with a cooler full of snack, from cookies, chips, water, juice, fresh fruits, sandwich meat and cheese and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. It was Wednesday, July 8, 2015, the weather was perfect, the sun was not scorning and the breeze was perfect all day.  We walked over 9k step according to my walking meter.  We had such a good time that us old folks had to take Motrin as soon as we got into the truck to ride home.  We started to feel it in our necks and backs, lol.

That weekend we went to the movies and saw the Minions in 3D, this kids enjoyed it, but I think I saw to many commercial and it spoiled it for me. Hey it was good and I laugh a few times but for some odd reason a feel asleep also.

Later that night is when my whole life took a change.  I was massaging my breast which is natural to do.  I found a lump. Well its the weekend so i cant call the doctor until Monday to make an appointment to get it checked out.  So all weekend yes i was worried, because I knew for a fact that, that lump was not there last month. 

Monday morning my husband and I go to the doctor and after being examined she told me that day to get a mammogram and sonogram.  After receiving theses two test I was headed to my car, but my Dr. ask me to come back in and told me she already schedule an appointment with the breast center at Anne Arundel Medical Center in two days for a biopsy.  Wednesday morning was the biopsy.  They numbered the area and took tissue out from the lump and noticed that a near by lymph node looked odd and the biopsied that one also.  They put clips back into the lump and lymph node to gaged on future pictures where they have been or if new one crop up.  After the procedure I was jitter and shaking (from the epinephrine). I went home wondering what will the test reveil.  All my paperwork was sent stat and just like that the next day I got an answer.

Starting over again.  On August 10, 2015 I will start my blog up once again.  I have been hit with a life changing event and that is what we will call it, just an event.  Like all other obstacles we will let  God, family, and friends help us get through this also.  To help this blog become better please included comments likes and dislike, even questions that you might have or want answered.  Please come along with me and my journey and i hope to show, improve, and/or discovery something more within you too.